s0ul_hunter

when u are sad

on the way home

or no where to go

or when u are at home

when tears are just around the corner of your eyes

u wanted so much to talk to someone

u browsed thru ur phone book

and realise there is actually no one for u to call

the feeling is ultrally sour

when u wanted to give a call to someone u are close with

yet its a no answer

finally another one pick up

yet u duno what to say

hearing someone voice make the tear roll in your eye

after awhile u decided to put down the phone

when u realise

the only little confident you had for urself is gone

tears finally rolled down

u wanted it to stop

but it just wont stop

and u realise thats the end of a beautiful day

and the start of your emotional period

not all behave the same

but its kind of typical

and when u are typing this

u finally realise blogging is the only way u can say it out

say out how u feel but not all

人本来就寂寞 isnt it

faith and confident keep ppl strong

but a few external hit destroyed them

once gone you felt empty

and its the end

its not a good feeling after all

i felt guilty

this is the last time

no more no more

before u judge others look at yourself pls

u arent anything better

everytin is back

dun feel good animore

the dark period

dislike

depress

i m still the one

sms-ing asking ppl to meet now and den

like a nobody

if i dun send out the smses

i will be left alone

even for birthday meet-up

out of 4 gatherings that are coming

i am organising 2 by myself

sending out smses to ask for free dates and etc

i am not that thick skined

i dun like the feeling of being lonely and no where to go

yet i also dun like the feeling of taking initiative all the time

its sad

even for my closes clique i thght

no smses to ask me out of anything

even a meet for a drink, a meal, a hi and bye will be good

but none.

all have thier own tings to do thier peeps to company them

whats me

i felt this is the past

not for a moment till now

its here again

state of emo-ing

sigh off

yog duty starting tml

oh no

duno what to expect

bless

anywae lappy is back

luckily its under warranty coverage

if not it will cost around $1.4 k to change the motherboard and the fan

hope it will be stable and wont die on me anymore

mohoho

full of messy shifts

its difficult to arrange meet up and appointment

looking forward!

its a nice song more so as she sang it with her emotion

too bad its just a short version



a full unplugged version by another girl, its quite nice too



the original version by the original singer - tanya chua



the lyrics is meaningful

昨天跟你借的幸福 是今天以后的回顾 说忘记只是掩人耳目

how true

haix

recently some memories of some people that appeared in my life before kept appearing in my mind

when i am sitting on the bus

when i am take the lift

when i am taking a shit

before i slp etc

there are happi and some are sad and there are regrets

but they are all precious

1 of the person i think of is my grandma

others i shall kip it within myself

at every single point of life there are different event happening

they all form up as my collection of memories

i shall keep

so difficult to even find someone out to have dinner with

is everyone busy with their own life?

or is it difficult to get back to the past time?

its just even so difficult to get a reply

whose next? who should i look for next or who should i rant to next

its a '?'

stagnant life for quite sometime

haven been engaging in many stuff that i did in the past

to avoid hurt

hiding myself in disguise

yet looking forward anxiously for the opportunity to come

its just difficult

my random thoughtsssszzz

我对你的想念此刻特别强烈

who will u tink of when u are at ur lowest mood

每当寂寞 总想找个人 把心声说出来 但仔细想想却没头绪

好想找个人把心中好多好多的秘密说出来

好想找个人把心中好多好多的话说出来

但那好难好难

心中的话不知如何说出口

心中的话不知对谁说

好孤寂 好寂寞

窗外的天很蓝
而我的心太灰暗
看着星星想着你
在我心里你是唯一
you are the star
that i believe
'cause i can feel you in me